Day 3: No more Miss Piggy!

Like MartyrSchrader, I'm relieved to be done with Gorging.  I should have done better yesterday, but I couldn't stomach the thought of having meat, so I ate a cheesecake (2100 calories, 110 grams of fat) throughout the day.  By afternoon, I felt tired and weak and realized that I probably needed some protein, so I "made a run for the border," and grabbed 2 of the most fattening burritos on the menu.  I finished the day around 4000 calories, and went to bed worried that I didn't eat enough (ridiculous, I know).  The scale moved up another 1.5 pounds this morning, putting me at a total of six pounds above my official starting weight.  


I've been very nervous about being hungry on these "Very Low Calorie Days."  As it turns out, I'm not physically hungry, but I've been wanting to eat out of habit.  I've been saying for years that I don't eat "that much," but now that I'm really paying attention, I realize that most of my calories are unintentional calories--things I don't PLAN to eat, but do anyway.  I caught myself today just before I unthinkingly licked the lid to LittleBoySchrader's yogurt and realized that I do that all day long--munching as I pack LittleGirl's lunch, "sharing" LittleBoy's snacks, tasting as I cook.  As an ex-smoker, I'm also realizing that I eat out of habit.  I haven't needed food today, but I just want to chew something because, well...apparently that's what I do all day.  I have to start being very conscious of what I'm doing so I don't end up with a mouthful of the LittleSchraders' food that I don't even want.!


Breakfast today was a shot of HCG in the belly and a handful of supplements, followed by a half-gallon of water throughout the morning.  I didn't eat anything until noon, when I reheated a 3.5 oz piece of steak I grilled last night and sliced up half a cucumber with some dill and salt and pepper for a total of 160 calories.  It didn't make me puke like I thought it might, but it wasn't especially tasty to me either.  Today I feel like I'm not getting anything out of my food except nutrition, and that's the attitude I want to keep for the rest of my life.