Days 63, 64, and 65: Where's SS?

Yikes!  I guess I haven't done so well with blogging lately, have I?  Just another thing I got lazy about, I suppose.      


I returned to the doc on Tuesday, and I was not at all surprised to learn that I am exactly where I was three weeks ago.  No fractions of inches lost, no pounds lost.  Of course, I'd LOVE to have lost more, but it's actually good that I've managed to maintain my loss--especially since I haven't been watching calories or fat.  I've realistically been eating pretty much whatever I want (it just so happens that I haven't WANTED many starches or sugars...except some ice cream, but I'll get to that in a minute).  Doc gave the go-ahead for me to slowly re-introduce foods to my diet.  She suggested beginning with "gentle" carbs like brown rice or oatmeal and only having a small serving with one meal a day while I get used to them.  I didn't break it to her that I'd already snagged some crackers (and Snapea Crisps!)  over the past couple of weeks...or a couple bites of ice cream here and there.  


Oh, yes.  The ice cream.  I tried some the other night while the Littles ate dessert.  I had two bites the next day.  I had two more bites the day after that.  Yesterday, I took a bite.  And another.  And another.  Then I started reading something while I had the spoon in my hand.  Before I knew it, I had A LOT of ice cream.  I didn't eat ALL of it, but I had a lot of it.  Mindless eating AGAIN.  Sure, it tasted good, but two bites would have been enough.  I immediately began to beat myself up over it...I DON'T want to fall back into old habits like that.  I told HS what I did and that I felt yucky.  His response?  "Guilt tastes bad."  Thanks, dear!  I also coveted the Littles' pizza last night, but he pointed out that it was only frozen pizza and not worth it.  *sigh*  I guess he's a better support system than I thought he was.  Needless to say, I was quite surprised to step on the scale this morning and find myself DOWN a pound this morning.  I'm relieved that I can stray from the healthier choices and still maintain my weight loss.  That gives me hope that I"ll be able to keep the weight off permanently.