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Sorry I haven't been posting.  While SS was correct, my eyes have been bothering me this last week (really dry), there's more to the story.  I've been a little frustrated and I haven't wanted to be negative on the blog.  My loses for awhile were not as big as I had hoped and then SS has been saying that she thinks I have food obsession issues because I talk about food a lot.

SS started doubting if I would continue to eat healthy after the protocol which really irked me.  I've been wanting to eat healthier for a long time now and this was the perfect way to start.  Plus I've already discussed with SS my intentions after the plan is done.  I had hoped to be within 10 pounds of my target weight when done but realistically I think it will be closer to 20 if my loses continue on the same path.  Still much more than I could have done on my own so I'm not complaining, honestly.

So to lose the additional 10 to 20 pounds I've decided that I really want to start exercising again.  I wish I could start now!  I have so much more energy already it's ridiculous.  Now I don't have big dreams of hitting the gym twice a day or being an American Gladiator or anything, I just plan to start running again and doing anaerobic exercises at home.  Push-ups, sit-ups, the kind of things I did while in the Army.  If I lose the additional weight great but what it really comes down to is if I feel healthy or not.  Sure I'd like to run a marathon someday, or join the 100 push-up/100 sit-up club, but those to me are longterm goals that I can't even see right now.  If I'm sticking to the plan, and I'm already discussing my intentions afterwards, why should SS care if I talk about food that sounds/smells good if I'm not eating it and why should she start questioning me?

See, exactly why I haven't been posting, coming across like an ass.  Hopefully now I'll get over it.  I've stopped talking to SS about food so this topic should not come up again.  Going to the doctor this evening so I'm sure my next post will be more upbeat.