Day 13: Revelation

I'm down 1.5 pounds today, so I feel better about yesterday's gain.  That puts me down a total of 11.3 pounds from my Day 1 weight, but I'm still a little bit bummed because, unless I lose 3.9 pounds overnight, I'm not going to meet my 1 pound per day goal for the week.  It looks like a 0.5 pounds per day is a more reasonable goal.  As for the other goals, I have been having all of my water this week, and with the exception of the weekend, we had family dinners throughout the week, so 2 out of 3 goals are successes.

My major revelation of the day is probably a fairly obvious one, but it hit me like a ton of bricks this morning.  On the HCG Diet, I have no control over my weight loss.  Of course I have to eat within Protocol to see a loss, but it's not like another diet where I can eat less or workout harder to burn more calories.  I'm eating essentially the same thing every day and likely burning the same number of calories each day, but the fat loss is different every day; all I can do is weigh myself and see the result.  It's an absolutely bizarre feeling to have so little control over what's happening inside my body, but it's also somewhat liberating.  As long as I do my part by eating what I'm supposed to, the weight will come off.  I can't predict HOW or WHEN it will come off, but all of the 0.5s and 1.4s and 0.2s will eventually add up to larger numbers, and I just need to let it happen. I may have been disappointed that I gained 0.6 pounds yesterday, but when I look at the big picture, I've lost almost 15 pounds in 10 days (from my peak post-load weight).  The last time I did that, I got a baby in return!